The Worst Kind of Heartbreak

I love you

And once, you loved me too

But then, something changed

And after that, nothing was ever the same.

You told me you didn't love me anymore,

That you had fall in love with someone else, with some little ------.

I yelled at you, called you all sorts of ugly names,

And you said that this was a long time coming, that you were tired of all my little "games".

But of course, I had no idea what you were talking about

Probably just an excuse to make yourself feel better, no doubt.

I told you to go and to never come back

And you didn‘t waste time, already starting to pack

I sat there on our bed, dazed, as you slammed drawer after drawer

And, when you finally walked out the door,

I  let myself cry

And in that moment, I wanted to die

I hated you , for making me feel that way

But I loved you, too, and I still do, to this very day.

And you hurt me so freaking badly,

And you knew this but still, you left me

I saw another side of you, a side I didn't want to ever see or know

But oh, did your true colors finally show

They shined out at me, their grayish skin causing them to look faded

And I guess I should've been grateful, for a lifetime of misery I had just evaded

But, it wasn't so simple; Although my eyes had now been opened

Nothing would ever stop me from hopin'

That one day 

You would come back to me, and that this time, you would stay.

I hated you,

But I needed you.

And you weren't there.

And that’s when I realized something: this is the worst kind of heartbreak, the kind you can’t cure.

It’s the kind that stays with you for the rest of your life. The kind you just have to learn to endure.